|Halloween decorations that used to go in the window from 1980 to1986|
As a child, I always liked Halloween. It was a special day when a certain magic in the air made me happy. My dad would always decorate the second week of October, and put up displays in the window on Halloween night. What a time to be a kid, when the leaves were falling and neighbors had the die-cut decorations in their windows. I would always wander around and look at these pieces of art. The relationship continued when my family and I moved to California from Utah in 1988, though I chose a costume on the 29th of October of that year. 1989, and 1990 were OK years, but 1991 and 1992 were so mediocre, especially 1992, where I came up with a costume at the last second. I had such high expectations for 1992. 1993 was terrible, and 1994 was a little better, that was the first year I took control of the Halloween display. 1995 and 1996 were OK as well, 1997 was so disappointing. 1998 was the year the torch was passed from my father to me, in terms of Halloween setups. 1999 was the year I had many compliments and 2000 through 2005 were my golden years. I was going through emotional turmoil in 2006 and 2007, and it wasn't fun anymore. My mother's first bout with cancer in late October 2008 derailed many plans, and Halloween didn't seem to matter that year. It was the first Halloween I had off, and it rained all night. I had stayed under the blanket all night hoping the rain would stop. 2009 was sort of a restart, but 2010 was another off year. 2011 was marred with emotional distress about my mother's second bout with cancer and outbursts of anger at my brother. I was so stressed that year that I was going to quit Halloween forever. 2012 was such a terrible year, that in writing this, I feel like the spirit of Halloween is dead in me. I don't care that it's coming up and can't seem to get any enthusiasm going.